okay so I am deep in thought, again! why is it win I feel meh my brain goes "Let’s just go on over drive! weeee!" I talked about leaving Eltin, but I honestly don’t know if I will or not. How can I bug you all and drive you crazy if I leave? Besides, if I leave, I’m letting this darn program beat me, and there is no way! that is gonna happen. So yes, I am deep in thought. I had a bad migraine today, so I should be resting. key word,
Month: July 2020
I am leaving Eltin. I have had nothing but trouble out of it from the start. Please keep in mind, I am not bashing anyone, I am just stating facts and my experiences. If you have a twitter feel free to contact me, I’ll give you the link to my twitter profile. I’ll be deleting my account Friday, so you won’t have much time to contact me. I’m sorry, I don’t know if it’s the computer or this program, but I can not deal with it crashing constently like this
I am thinking of making a separate twitter account for my YouTube channel. I think you can use a phone number to verify you are not a robot and then connect it back to the twitter you you want it to be connected to. There are a few things holding me back though.
IFTTT
I use a service called ITTT to post things to my personal account, like quotes from brainy quote Etc. Can I still use this on my personal account if I use it on my account for my channel? Will it post to both at once? What if I want some things to post to my personal account, and some things to post to the YouTube channel account? Can I do this?
Keeping up.
How am I going to keep up with both accounts? I don’t know if I can reply to everyone all the time. Do I just let replies and such come in with out worrying about replying? Does the official twitter app for android support more than one account? Or do I just use tweetings? So many questions, not enough answers. Guess I may try sleeping on it tonight, talk to my Mom AKA my Momiger to see what her take is going to be.
I have been dealing with migraines for awhile now due to rain. I have found that audio books and music have helped me a lot. win I listen to audio books, it’s as if I am being read to. My question is, have the narrators ever been thanked? I do not mean paid, I’m unsure if they even get a lot of money to do this in the first place, but let’s take money out of the picture, even though that is important, but I’m talking about being thanked here. Do people even think about what time they put in to this? It’s not like they can sit down and read these books in one go, it takes time. Not to mention that they have to put emotion in what they read. Not only that, but if the narrator is moved by the book they are reading, if it hits to close to home for them, they still have to do it, with out showing the emotions that it may bring up. I would like to find a way to thank them somehow, but I don’t even know where to start. Does anyone have any ideas? Could I type in my favorite narrator(s) on facebook or twitter and see if they have a page? I won’t bother them if they have a personal profile only, I don’t want to freak anyone out here. Any help would be great.
I am going to start a separate blog for my YouTube channel. I do have a method to my madness. I want to do this so that people who want to just read my thoughts and so on can do that, and if people want to read updates about my YouTube channel they can do that. It will be easier for people to keep up with. You can argue I can get a website for this, but 1, I don’t have the funds to keep it going and 2, I would like to use WordPress/Eltin so I can practice HTML Etc. This is the best way to do this, at least until I get a website. on WordPress I can reach more people, I think. If I have a dedicated blog for my YouTube channel, It’s less clutter for those who just want to keep up with things related to that. And yes, you can run more than one blog on WordPress/eltin. Sorry this is so short, but I am dealing with a migraine because of a skunk spraying outside my window last night. The little jerk!
Please note, Reader discretion is advised here, there could be something that might upset/trigger people.
I have been doing a lot of research about Michael Jackson’s death lately. I know it’s old news, but this story is so out there, there has to be things I am missing. Well I was watching a documentary about his death and I decided to look at the YouTube comments. Someone said there was a song by him called "Morphine." that we should check it out and I did. Oh my god that song is so haunting! It’s almost as if he was predicting his death. If you look at the words you can tell he was either one, trying to warn us about what could happen, or two, crying out for help and no one knew it. I do not claim to be a fan, but I do feel sorry for him because of what he went through.
Trust in… who?
The song starts out fast, and it seems like you could really jam to it. However, the Chorus says,
Trust in me
Trust in me
Put all your trust in me
You’re doing morphine.
there is two ways to take this. Win he says "Trust in me" he could either be saying, trust the drug, or trust the doctor giving you the drug. In any case, it’s really haunting to me.
predicting his death?
As the song goes on, it still seems like a jamming song, until it gets to the bridge. Then it slows down, and he sings,
Relax
This won’t hurt you
Before I put it in
Close your eyes and count to ten
Don’t cry
I won’t convert you
There’s no need to dismay
Close your eyes and drift away
Demerol
Demerol
Oh God he’s taking Demerol
Demerol
Demerol
Oh God he’s taking Demerol
He’s tried
Hard to convince her
To be over what he had
Today he wants it twice as bad
Don’t cry
I won’t resent you
Yesterday you had his trust
Today he’s taking twice as much
Demerol
Demerol
Oh God he’s taking Demerol
He-he-he
Demerol
Demerol
Oh my Oh God it’s Demerol
He
Ooh
Here’s the most haunting part of this song. This song was recorded in 1997. Back then we may have known he had drug problems, but I don’t think we knew for sure just how bad it was, or at least I didn’t.
In 2009 win he died, it has been revealed that he did take Demerol, all though, it was not in his system win he died. Could he have been predicting his death? You could say that Demerol did not, in fact kill him, but it has been proven that this drug can cause problems with your heart and lungs, and MR. Jackson did have lung and heart problems, I think.
conclusion
This song may not mean a thing, maybe it’s just a song that MR. Jackson made using his life experience to draw from, but at the same time, Listen to the words, but not just the words, listen to his voice as he sings this song. He sounds angry, sad, and hurt. I honestly think he was calling out for help in 1997, and no one heard him. Either that or people heard him and didn’t care. I can not help but think, what if someone did hear him? What if he could get the help me needed? He may still be alive today. Like I said, I am not a huge fan, but there have been songs of his that grab me and pull me in, and "Morphine" is one of them.
sources
If you want to hear the song morphine, go here.
If you want to read the lyrics of the song go here.
https://genius.com/Michael-jackson-morphine-lyrics